haan mein galat

I can’t get over how endlessly loopable this song is. I have spent entire days at work just looping this one song and it is the perfect infinite party mood that never seems to get annoying.

Always ready to sing along.

Aa stage laga hai

Badi jagah hai

Do it with a twist

malang (soundtrack)

Malang has started off so strong with another super solid Mohit Suri soundtrack. Forget the movie, Mohit Suri is such a sexist hack. But I can’t deny that he pumps out amazing soundtracks for his movies.

The songs and the music videos are aspirational — still not as good as Aashiqui 2 — but they have definitely made me want to get into an intense & passionate romance just in order to come home and feel like one of the songs.

Here’s the order of how this Malang relationship would go:

Humraah is the glorious meeting. You know you’re falling for them so hard within 24 hours of meeting. It’s intense, it’s amazing, it’s wonderful. You know this person is special.

Char Ghar Chalein is right at the tail end of the honeymoon phase. Everything is perfect. You fit together so well. You’ve never felt so confident in anything in your life.

Malang is when things start to go bad. You’re passionate, but that intensity comes with some darkness. Other people describe you two as toxic. It doesn’t matter to you because the highest highs are worth more than the lowest lows. They’re your entire world — the good and the bad.

Hui Malang is when something snaps back to normality for you. Maybe you get some distance, you meet a childhood friend who objectively assesses your relationship and says, “Girl, you need to get out.” You have your wake up call.

Phir Na Milen Kabhi is your post-breakup goto. You still love them. How could you not? They were your everything, and you feel empty without them. Just listen to Arijit’s soulfulness and remember you’re never going to meet again.

I wonder what soundtracks are going to top this in 2020. As long as Tanishk Bagchi keeps making remakes, I doubt I’ll see any competitors anytime soon.

first donations of the year

I had a goal this year to donate whatever leftover money I had after expenses and savings to charity. It’s important to stay grounded, sacrifice some of your meal to the gods every month, etc.. I think it’s immoral for folks who are able to invest significant amounts of money to not donate.

That hasn’t worked out so cleanly because since I got a bonus this month, I have extra extra money, and I don’t feel comfortable donating such a large amount. I also occasionally have a few hundred come in from various freelance opportunities.

My income doesn’t vary much, but it varies enough to make donating leftover money weird.

I’ve decided to stick with a goal of donating a fixed amount each month instead.

The two charities I’ve decided to donate to this year are both very close to my heart: RAINN and Sightsavers. Although, I’m also considering switching my focus to Sankara Eye Foundation since it’s an extremely Indian-American organization.

My favorite website for finding places to donate to is ImpactMatters. It’s all well and good for GiveWell to tell me that malaria prevention is the best use of my money. That doesn’t stop the fact that I care about certain things more.

ImpactMatters has a great calculator that tells you your direct impact based on how much money you donated. It also has lists for your local area.

I care a lot about sexual violence domestically & health related to India, so that’s where my money is going.

According to ImpactMatters, my donation of $300 saved 6 people from blindness. I can feel that in my bones and it incentivizes me to donate more.

It doesn’t cover all topics, though. It doesn’t have a category for domestic violence victims, or women-focused, so I do have to look elsewhere.

I also give some money via Kiva, but I’m not sure something so capitalist is actually a good use of my money. It’s nice that I can put in $100 and have it cycle around forever, though.

The world is quiet here.” This may sound curious, like the motto of a secret organization, or something a stranger would say when he picks you up in his taxi and invites you to use your talent to benefit the world. There’ll be losses along the way. We may never triumph, not completely. We may be defeated, at least for a time. But we’ll never disappear. Not so long as there are noble, well-read people to take up the torch.

Jacques Snicket, A Series of Unfortunate Events (2018)

reading music

I’ve found that the best reading music for me is Classical KUSC. I’ve been listening on and off since I was a kid in LA — I loved classical music before. My favorite composer is Liszt, although Bernstein is up there, too.

They have an app which makes things extremely convenient. Just open it, turn on Bluetooth, and I’m good to go.

I can’t seem to read words when the hosts are speaking, though. I don’t think I could focus as well if it didn’t feel human-curated, though. I’d always be yearning to skip the song, make the perfect playlist, or whatever.

I’m also a paid member. The diversity of music they play is really nice, from film scores to modern classical music to renditions of classics.

just voted!

2020 leggo

I’m endorsing Elizabeth Warren for President because I think she’s the only candidate who’s ever been speaking intersectionality. (Sadly, the candidates of color often didn’t have the privilege to. Been there, experienced that.)

I’m okay with a Bernie Sanders presidency, but it’d be …very economics focused rather than targeting cultural forces beyond money.

Honestly, I’m surprised more Yang people aren’t Bernie people. They’re very similar.

Down ballot, voted for incumbents, voted against higher bonds towards seemingly no end, and weirdly… voted against the city of Oakland requiring an official city newspaper? Weird stuff.

wizards of waverly place

I started watching Wizards of Waverly Place as a good watch-on-my-phone show while I’m spending so much time in bed because of an injury.

and it’s honestly really good. It’s got a super compelling premise, fleshed-out characters, and Selena Gomez is arguably the best Disney Channel actor I have …ever seen apart from maybe Raven Symone. She’s somehow subtle, yet loud.

I don’t think it hits me emotionally enough to replace Liv & Maddie as my favorite show, but it’s really good.