all my favorite indian songs of all time

remember me like this.

here is the spotify playlist:

since i don’t trust spotify, here is a html table with the current entries.

Track Name Artist Name Album Name
Kaun Nachdi Guru Randhawa, Neeti Mohan Sonu Ke Titu Ki Sweety
Cutiepie Pritam, Pardeep Singh Sran, Nakash Aziz Ae Dil Hai Mushkil (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack) [Deluxe Edition]
Aankhon Ki Gustakhiyan Kumar Sanu, Kavita Krishnamurthy Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam
Chori Chori Alka Yagnik, Sonu Nigam Lucky: No Time For Love
Kheech Meri Photo (From Sanam Teri Kasam”)” Neeti Mohan, Akasa Singh, Darshan Raval Sanam Teri Kasam (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Tod Tadaiyya Neeraj Shridhar, Neeti Mohan Prem Ratan Dhan Payo
Do Dhaari Talwaar Shahid Mallya, Shweta Pandit Mere Brother Ki Dulhan (Original)
Pyar Ki Kashti Mein Udit Narayan, Alka Yagnik Kaho Naa Pyaar Hai (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Ho Gaya Hai Tujhko To Pyar Sajna Lata Mangeshkar, Udit Narayan Dilwale Dulhania Le Jayenge (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Jatt Ludhiyane Da Vishal-Shekhar, Vishal Dadlani, Payal Dev Student of the Year 2
Tere Naal Nachna (From Nawabzaade”)” Badshah, Sunanda Sharma Tere Naal Nachna (From Nawabzaade”)”
Buzz (feat. Badshah) Aastha Gill, Badshah Buzz (feat. Badshah)
Let’s Break Up Amit Trivedi, Vishal Dadlani Dear Zindagi (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Akh Lad Jaave Badshah, Asees Kaur, Jubin Nautiyal Loveyatri – A Journey Of Love
Kar Gayi Chull Badshah, Amaal Mallik, Fazilpuria, Sukriti Kakar, Neha Kakkar Kapoor & Sons (Since 1921) (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Trippy Trippy (From Bhoomi”)” Neha Kakkar, Benny Dayal, Brijesh Shandilya, Badshah, Sachin-Jigar Trippy Trippy (From Bhoomi”)”
D Se Dance Sachin-Jigar, Vishal Dadlani, Shalmali Kholgade, Anushka Manchanda Humpty Sharma Ki Dulhania (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Chad Gayi Tony Kakkar, Neha Kakkar, Amrit Rao, Sanker Sharma Sixteen
Dil Rang Le Sunidhi Chauhan, Vinit Rocky
Magar Meri Jaan Anushka Manchanda, Mahua, Lalit Pandit Dulha Mil Gaya
Dil Laga Na Sukhbir, Soham Chakrabarthy, Jolly Mukherjee, Mahalakshmi Iyer, Suzanne Dhoom:2 (Original)
Akh Ladiye Kunal Ganjawala, Shweta Pandit, Javed Ali Neal ‘N’ Nikki (Original)
Dil Dooba Sonu Nigam, Shreya Ghoshal Khakee
Chori Chori Dil Le Gaya Hema Sardesai, Sukhwinder Singh Garam Masala (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Dil Dil Deewana Udit Narayan, Alka Yagnik Har Dil Jo Pyar Karega
Na Tum Jano Na Hum Lucky Ali Bollywood: Songs From Popular Indian Cinema
Dhak Dhak Karne Laga Anuradha Paudwal, Udit Narayan Beta
Afsana Himesh Reshammiya, Tulsi Kumar Dil Diya Hai
Chudi Khankayi Re – Yeh Hai JAlwa / Soundtrack Version Udit Narayan, Alka Yagnik Yeh hai Jalwa
Shikdum Shaan, Shreya Ghoshal Dhoom (Original)
Jhalak Dikhla Ja Himesh Reshammiya Aksar
Hum Dono Jaisa KK, Sunidhi Chauhan Mere Yaar Ki Shaadi Hai (Original)
Agar Main Kahoon Shankar-Ehsaan-Loy, Alka Yagnik, Udit Narayan Lakshya (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Mujhe Tumse Mohabbat Hai – Remix Shreya Ghoshal, Shaan Tumsa Nahin Dekha – A Love Story (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Hadh Kardi Aapne Udit Narayan, Kavita Krishnamurthy Hadh Kar Di Aapne
Halla Re Shweta Pandit, Salim Merchant, Robert Bob Omulo Neal ‘N’ Nikki (Original)
Main Vari Vari A.R. Rahman Mangal Pandey: The Rising
Rehem Kare Sunidhi Chauhan Cash
Dil Ne Yeh Kaha Hain Dil Se (From Dhadkan”)” Sonu Nigam, Alka Yagnik My Best Collection – Sonu Nigam
Baby Doll Meet Bros Anjjan, Kanika Kapoor Bollywood Party With Meet Bros
Katiya Karun Harshdeep Kaur Rockstar
Haawa Haawa Mohit Chauhan Rockstar
Luni Hasi – Female Version Amit Trivedi, Harshdeep Kaur Luv Shuv Tey Chicken Khurana (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Pashmina Amit Trivedi Fitoor
Chaandaniya Yashita Sharma, K. Mohan 2 States (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Ambarsariya Sona Mohapatra Fukrey (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Saadi Galli Aaja Ayushmann Khurrana, Neeti Mohan Nautanki Saala !
Pehli Baar Shankar Mahadevan, Sukriti Kakar Dil Dhadakne Do (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Sooiyan (From Guddu Rangeela”)” Amit Trivedi, Arijit Singh, Chinmayi Arijit Singh – Ultimate Love Songs
Kalank (Title Track) Arijit Singh Kalank
Kinna Sona (From Marjaavaan”)” Meet Bros., Jubin Nautiyal, Dhvani Bhanushali Kinna Sona (From Marjaavaan”)”
Naah Harrdy Sandhu Naah
Uff Vishal-Shekhar, Harshdeep Kaur, Benny Dayal Bang Bang (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Item Number (From Teefa In Trouble”)” Ali Zafar, Aima Baig Item Number (From Teefa in Trouble”) – Single”
Aao Raja Neha Kakkar, Yo Yo Honey Singh Gabbar Is Back
Manma Emotion Jaage (From Dilwale”)” Amit Mishra, Anushka Manchanda, Antara Mitra Manma Emotion Jaage (From Dilwale”)”
Nashe Si Chadh Gayi Arijit Singh Befikre (Original)
Je T’aime Vishal Dadlani, Sunidhi Chauhan Befikre (Original)
Dj Waley Babu (feat. Aastha Gill) Badshah, Aastha Gill ONE (Original Never Ends)
Chikni Chameli Ajay-Atul, Shreya Ghoshal Agneepath (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Lucky Tu Lucky Me Sachin-Jigar, Benny Dayal, Anushka Manchanda, Varun Dhawan Humpty Sharma Ki Dulhania (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Second Hand Jawaani (From Cocktail”)” Miss Pooja, Neha Kakkar, Nakash Aziz Cocktail
Kukkad Vishal-Shekhar, Shahid Mallya, Nisha Mascarenhas, Marianne DCruz Aiman Student of the Year (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Ishq Bulaava Vishal-Shekhar, Sanam Puri, Shipra Goyal Hasee Toh Phasee (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Chinta Ta Ta Chita Chita Sajid-Wajid, Mika Singh, Wajid Khan Rowdy Rathore (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Rowdy Baby Yuvan Shankar Raja, Dhanush, Dhee Rowdy Baby (From Maari 2″ Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)”
Idhedho Bagundhe Vijay Prakash, Anitha Mirchi
Nachan Farrate (From All Is Well”)” Meet Bros., Kanika Kapoor Move Your Lakk With Sonakshi Sinha
Ding Dang Amit Mishra, Antara Mitra Munna Michael (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Udi Udi Jaye Sukhwinder Singh, Bhoomi Trivedi, Karsan Sagathia Raees
Dilbar Dilbar Alka Yagnik Sirf Tum
Chhote Chhote Peg Yo Yo Honey Singh, Neha Kakkar, Navraj Hans Sonu Ke Titu Ki Sweety
Maa Ka Phone Priya Panchal Khoobsurat
Lonely Himesh Reshammiya, Yo Yo Honey Singh, Hamsika Iyer Khiladi 786
Gulaabo Vishal Dadlani, ANUSHA MANI Shaandaar
Ainvayi Ainvayi Salim Merchant, Sunidhi Chauhan Band Baaja Baaraat (Original)
Kala Chashma Amar Arshi, Badshah, Neha Kakkar, Indeep Bakshi Baar Baar Dekho
Galat Baat Hai Neeti Mohan, Javed Ali Main Tera Hero
Cham Cham Meet Bros., Monali Thakur Baaghi
Beat Pe Booty Sachin Sanghvi, Jigar Saraiya, Vayu, Kanika Kapoor A Flying Jatt
Dholida Udit Narayan, Neha Kakkar, Palak Muchhal, Raja Hasan Loveyatri – A Journey Of Love
Balam Pichkari Vishal Dadlani, Shalmali Kholgade Yeh Jawaani Hai Deewani
Hawayein Pritam, Arijit Singh Jab Harry Met Sejal (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Aithey Aa Akasa Singh, Neeti Mohan, Kamaal Khan Bharat
One Two Three Four (Get On The Dance Floor) Vishal Dadlani, Hamsika Iyer Chennai Express
Titli Chinmayi, Gopi Sundar Chennai Express
Sun Saathiya Priya Saraiya, Divya Kumar ABCD 2
Dhinka Chika Amrita Kak, Mika Singh Ready
Caller Tune Himesh Reshammiya, Neeti Mohan Humshakals (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Psycho Saiyaan (From Saaho”)” Sachet Tandon, Dhvani Bhanushali, Tanishk Bagchi Psycho Saiyaan (From Saaho”)”
Socha Hai (From Baadshaho”)” Jubin Nautiyal, Neeti Mohan, Tanishk Bagchi, R. D. Burman Socha Hai (From Baadshaho”)”
Ooh La La Bappi Lahiri, Shreya Ghoshal The Dirty Picture
Halka Halka Shreya Ghoshal, Sonu Nigam, Ram Sampath Raees
Dushman Mera Sunitha Sarathy, Shankar Mahadevan Don 2
Dreamum Wakeupum Sowmya Raoh Aiyyaa
Aga Bai Shalmali Kholgade, Monali Thakur Aiyyaa
Aa Toh Sahi Meet Bros., Neha Kakkar, Roach Killa Judwaa 2
Aao Kabhi Haveli Pe Badshah, Nikhita Gandhi, Sachin-Jigar Stree
Do U Know Shaan, Shreya Ghoshal Housefull 2
Malamaal Mika Singh, Akira, Miss Pooja, Kuwar Virk Housefull 3
Pyar Ki (feat. Nakkash Aziz, Divya Kumar, Anmoll Mallik, Earl Edgar) Shaarib, Toshi, Nakash Aziz, Divya Kumar, Anmoll Mallik, Earl Edgar Housefull 3
Jigar Da Tukda Salim Merchant, Shraddha Pandit Ladies Vs Ricky Bahl (Original)
Daddy Mummy Devi Sri Prasad, M. M. Manasi Bhaag Johnny
Lipstick Laga Ke Shaan, Payal Dev Great Grand Masti
Chokra Jawaan Vishal Dadlani, Sunidhi Chauhan Ishaqzaade (Original)
Makhna Tanishk Bagchi, Yasser Desai, Asees Kaur Makhna (From Drive”)”
Gal Ban Gayi Meet Bros., Sukhbir, Neha Kakkar, Yo Yo Honey Singh Gal Ban Gayi
Premika Benny Dayal, Kanika Kapoor Dilwale (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Ullu Ka Pattha Arijit Singh, Nikhita Gandhi Jagga Jasoos
Hip Hip Huraah Sonu Kakkar Mere Dad Ki Maruti (Original)
Manali Trance Yo Yo Honey Singh, Neha Kakkar, Lil Golu The Neha Kakkar Collection
Rum Whisky (From Vicky Donor”)” Akshay Verma Vicky Donor
Madamiyan (From Tevar”)” Mika Singh, Mamta Sharma Tevar (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Hungama Ho Gaya – From Queen”” Asha Bhosle, Arijit Singh Hungama Ho Gaya (From Queen”)”
Bimar Dil (From Pagalpanti”)” Asees Kaur, Jubin Nautiyal, Tanishk Bagchi Bimar Dil (From Pagalpanti”)”
Goriye Prem Hardeep, Kaka Bhaniawala, Desi Ma, Arjun, Blitz Gully Boy
Yaad Piya Ki Aane Lagi Neha Kakkar, Tanishk Bagchi, Lalit Sen Yaad Piya Ki Aane Lagi
Chaar Kadam Shaan, Shreya Ghoshal Pk
Samjhawan Jawad Ahmad, Sharib Toshi, Arijit Singh, Shreya Ghoshal Humpty Sharma Ki Dulhania (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Saturday Saturday Sharib Toshi, Badshah, Indeep Bakshi, Akriti Kakkar Humpty Sharma Ki Dulhania (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Emotional Fool Sharib Toshi, Toshi Sabri Humpty Sharma Ki Dulhania (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Banjaara (From Ek Villain”)” Mohammed Irfan Best Of Shraddha Kapoor
Agar Tum Saath Ho (From Tamasha”)” Alka Yagnik, Arijit Singh Love Forever With Arijit Singh
Chahun Main Ya Naa Palak Muchhal, Arijit Singh Aashiqui 2
Sunn Raha Hai (Female) Shreya Ghoshal Aashiqui 2
Awari Adnan Dhool, Momina Mustehsan Ek Villain
Phir Mohabbat Mohammed Irfan, Arijit Singh, Saim Bhat Murder 2
Tere Naina Shankar Mahadevan, Shreya Ghoshal Chandni Chowk To China
Pyaar Manga Hai Armaan Malik, Neeti Mohan, Abhijit Vaghani Pyaar Manga Hai
Jaan Meri Ja Rahi Sanam Anuradha Paudwal, Udit Narayan Lucky: No Time For Love
Pani Da Rang Male (From Vicky Donor”)” Ayushmann Khurrana Vicky Donor
Chori Kiya Re Jiya Sonu Nigam, Shreya Ghoshal Dabangg
Keeda (From Action Jackson”)” Himesh Reshammiya, Neeti Mohan Action Jackson (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Achha Lagta Hai Shankar-Ehsaan-Loy, Mohit Chauhan, Shreya Ghoshal, Neuman Pinto Aarakshan (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Leja Leja Sultan Khan, Shreya Ghoshal, Salim Merchant Ustad And The Divas
Tera Chehra Adnan Sami Tera Chehra
Tu Hi Yaar Mera (From Pati Patni Aur Woh”)” Rochak Kohli, Arijit Singh, Neha Kakkar Tu Hi Yaar Mera (From Pati Patni Aur Woh”)”
Tu Hi Hai (Ali Zafar Version) [From Dear Zindagi”]” Amit Trivedi, Ali Zafar Tu Hi Hai (Ali Zafar Version) [From Dear Zindagi”]”
Haan Main Galat (From Love Aaj Kal”)” Pritam, Arijit Singh, Shashwat Singh Haan Main Galat (From Love Aaj Kal”)”
Raabta (Kehte Hain Khuda Ne) Shreya Ghoshal, Arijit Singh Agent Vinod
Phir Milenge Chalte Chalte Sonu Nigam Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi
Chura Liya Hai Tumne Jo Dil Ko Asha Bhosle, Mohammed Rafi Yaadon Ki Baaraat (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Bangle Ke Peechhe Lata Mangeshkar Samadhi (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Dum Maro Dum, Pt. 1 Asha Bhosle Hare Rama Hare Krishna (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Piya Tu Ab To Aaja (From Caravan”)” Asha Bhosle, R. D. Burman Singing Icon – Asha Bhosle
Ek Chatur Naar Karke Sringar Kishore Kumar, Manna Dey, Mehmood Padosan (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Haa Jab Tak Hai Jaan – From “Sholay Songs And Dialogues, Vol. 2” Soundtrack Lata Mangeshkar Sholay Songs And Dialogues (Vol. 2/Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Dil Kya Kare – From Julie”” Kishore Kumar Chalte Chalte…Kishore Da’s Greatest Hits
O Mere Sona Re Sona Asha Bhosle, Mohammed Rafi Teesri Manzil (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Sayonara Sayonara Lata Mangeshkar Love in Tokyo (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Hum Dono Do Premi (From Ajnabee”)” Lata Mangeshkar, Kishore Kumar Diamonds Forever – Lata Mangeshkar
Bahon Mein Chale Aao (From Anamika”)” Lata Mangeshkar Diamonds Forever – Lata Mangeshkar
Aao Na Gale Lag Jao Na Asha Bhosle Mere Jeevan Saathi (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Aa Ja Re Aa Zara Aa Mohammed Rafi Love in Tokyo (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Phir Se Ud Chala Mohit Chauhan Rockstar
Safar Pritam, Arijit Singh Jab Harry Met Sejal (Original Motion Picture Soundtrack)
Aate Jaate Jo Milta Hai Sonu Nigam, Alka Yagnik Har Dil Jo Pyar Karega
Sarsariya Shashwat Singh, Shashaa Tirupati Mohenjo Daro
Nayan Tarse Amit Trivedi Dev D

disney+

I’ve had Disney+ for the past few weeks now. I hate to say it, but even as someone who doesn’t like Marvel, Star Wars, or Pixar, it’s my favorite streaming service right now.

There’s not a lot of particularly interesting new content — the latest animated Disney and Pixar movies are nice — but the rich archives of Disney content for children, from Disney Channel Original Movies to old Disney cartoons is a gold mine of comfortable content.

I prefer it strongly over Netflix, but of course, I feel too deeply embedded into Netflix to give that up. Netflix is too much the default.

I now have 4 streaming services. I’m definitely overwhelmed, but luckily I’m sharing them all with people so I don’t feel too bad.

Nothing beats Disney+ for a quick movie or TV show during the pandemic, though. I’m tired of sad, scary stuff. Let’s just watch TaleSpin.

instapaper zero & the holy grail

I’m a diligent subscriber to the Inbox Zero philosophy. This was first introduced in 2006 by Merlin Mann, a pioneer in the productivity blogging space. I probably reached it in 2006, right around when I had to delete my primary email address, radhika.morabia@gmail.com due to spam overload.

I currently have 6 emails in my inbox. They’re mostly todos or reminders that I need to keep for longer. I don’t really use archives that extensively (usually just for license keys and account backups), so if I get a flight confirmation, it stays in my primary inbox until after it’s done. That’s just my style.

I also clear up my archives a lot.

So, I have my inbox under control… What about other mediums of information intake?

bookmarks

My Bookmarks tend to be mandolin-related (let’s be honest, I’ll never get to most of these, but it’s nice to know another version of me already did the research on where to find chord charts and advanced video lessons) or links to ebooks I’ve bought. I’m okay with that.

We’re not at Bookmarks Zero but we’re close enough that it doesn’t haunt me.

podcasts

Podcasts can ebb and flow in how much they overwhelm me. I always seem to find a new podcast that I want to love and then I’ll hate it.

Currently, I am subscribed to 1 daily news podcast, 1 weekly show, and then ~3 shows that I’d say come out monthly. I’m normally okay with this, just listening when I wake up or when I’m doing the dishes, but finding new shows with 100+ archives is a hell like no other. It’s never worth it.

I used to listen to around 10 podcast episodes a day. I remember so little of it. The podcasts I do remember tend to be fictional and extremely well-produced. Another interesting twist on a talk show format is pointless to me.

youtube

YouTube is a toughie. I definitely have a Watch Later list. Every time I find a new creator, I MUST catch up on videos I am interested in. I slowly go through it. I’m nearly done with my latest one, and I doubt I’ll have a new creator I get obsessed with for a while.

So, YouTube tends to take 30-60 minutes a day. It’s a nice break during meals. The video nature of it makes having a long Watch Later list pretty relaxing catch up. If I miss YouTube for a week though… it’s a lot to catch up on.

tv shows & movies

I use an app called TV Time to keep track of new episodes of shows I keep up with. This is mostly just useful because I have no idea when shows that aren’t on streaming services come out onto the TV.

For movies, I don’t keep a to-watch list, but I keep track of everything I’ve ever watched on Letterboxd.

This is pretty free-flowing and I used to have a huge archive of TV shows to watch from 3 years where I couldn’t watch TV, but now I just kind of watch whatever I want, whenever I want.

journalism & articles

We have reached my true vice. Longform journalism, self-help blogs, and programming articles. I was obsessed with longform.org for at least half a decade. It’s like an addiction I keep going back to. 1% of articles sticks in your brain forever. Is that worth 20 hours a week of reading? I don’t think so.

Self-help and programming articles (which feel similar to me now that I’m a programmer) are about the same rate as well, but luckily, tend to take less than 30 minutes to read.

I had an archive of about 2000 articles in December of 2019. I split the programming-related ones into Pocket, and kept the more personal ones in Instapaper. That diluted the overwhelm a little bit, and I kept just digging through these as separate tasks.

As of today, I have under 500 — back to all being in Instapaper. I want to get to zero.

There’s an option in Instapaper — send my 10 newest articles to my Kindle every week. I have it set to Friday.

I can’t wait for the day where the only articles that are in there are from the past week. Most weeks it will be under 10, and I can slowly get through it one article at a time. Some weeks it’ll be over 10, but never 500.

I spent 3-4 hours catching up on my archive of Instapaper articles. I don’t think I even came close to making a dent.

I want to read 10 articles a day. In 50 days, I will be free.

I miss comic books! I miss real books! I miss using one of my 4 streaming services!

Inbox Zero, Podcast Zero, Bookmarks Zero, YouTube Zero, TV/Movies Zero, it’s all good.

But Instapaper Zero is holding me back from the spontaneity of having a selection of media that a version of me from a year ago didn’t push on me.

“Why not just delete them all?” It’s not that simple. Let’s not discuss that here.

I have a 5 day weekend coming up. I can finally read a bunch of articles and dig into Disney+ at the same time. I can’t wait to be Media Zero.

favorite song of 2013

I watched this song every day for nearly 70 days. I remember that I desperately needed to watch it at least once a day to feel sane. It’s perfect in every way. The song is great, the video is great, the lyrics are ridiculous, and the dancing is perfect.

By this point in my Bollywood career, I was pretty well-settled into understanding Hindi and this year had a lot of my favorite films. I don’t know why this soundtrack stood out so much. I remember a lot of people hated it. I loved it.

It’s also important to note that Sonakshi Sinha and Shahid Kapoor were my favorite actors at the time. Both of them coming in a movie together was the icing on the cake.

early 00s remixes

I recently got re-obsessed with the early 00s remixes made for an MTV generation. As an American, I rarely saw the music videos. The only avenue to do so was the Saturday morning Indian shows. That’s less than an hour, once a week.

However, I did go to India in 2004. I remember seeing a lot of videos then.

I think the way I was exposed to all of these was through a few CDs we had — I never know where my parents got our music from. I think we got it from India. I tried to find some of the songs I remembered, and the list isn’t very long, but well, it exists.

Most importantly, this includes 2 songs that my sister or I performed to when we were young. We weren’t the only ones who knew these songs. I don’t know. It’s hard to capture an era.

albums i keep returning to

Here’s an unordered list of albums I keep returning to in full. This means that I specifically listen to the entire album all the time. There are LOTS of artists where I listen to every album (or multiple albums) all the time, and those are compiled into their own playlist. That doesn’t count!

These are specifically me searching for this specific album all the time. I can like other stuff from the artists, but I want to listen to this album in isolation all the time.

the last five years (movie soundtrack)
deadroses by blackbear
purpose by justin bieber
singular act 1 by sabrina carpenter
camp cope by camp cope
the 20/20 experience by justin timberlake
bajirao mastaani soundtrack

(is bajirao mastaani really the best as in most consistent slb album??? wow???)

rockstar soundtrack

honorable mentions:

These aren’t exactly clearly albums, but they’re close enough that they’re important.

I can’t get any good Spotify embeddable links, so here is a list:

  • Malang soundtrack
  • Zombies 1 & 2 soundtrack (it’s 2 albums so idk if it counts)

IF I HAD TO CHOOSE ONE ALBUM OFF OF THIS LIST: It has to be The Last Five Years. I could live off of The Last Five Years.

comics update

I guess I’m a Marvel stan now.

Based on my last post about comics, I started reading some stuff on Hoopla. We have up to 8 takeouts per month, which is pretty awesome considering that I plan to mostly use it for comics.

I checked out more than I could chew, and I only ended up reading 2 comic books in the past two weeks. I think they’re pretty representative of what I wanted to explore.

I forgot that I read a lot of web comics over the past decade. I loved web comics. I remember one called The Dreamer that I thought was really awesome and had amazing art. I used to get web comics in my RSS feed. I also used to read web comics more in the style of newspaper dailies.

So, why is there so much resistance with physical comic books? I don’t know. I think it’s just so much less accessible than web comics. Now that the accessibility issue is gone with Hoopla (and soon, next year probably, the return of physical libraries!), as long as I know what to read, I can get access to reading it.

My plan is basically — start reading via the recommendations I had from the Patrick Willems video. There were probably about 5-10 comics from there, which is a great starting point.

If I liked them after finishing them (remember, these are all issue anthologies, so we’re talking about possibly 100+ issues before I “finish”), Google “What should I read after finishing [this comic]?” and building up my knowledge and stuff from there.

Alright, so let’s talk about the two comics I read in the past month.

I’ve consumed a LOT of superhero media, just never really in comics form. I’ve seen a ton of DC shows. Marvel, I’ve seen the same movies as anyone else. I’ve even seen Howard the Duck.

Since I’ve also read individual graphic novels like Scott Pilgrim and Persepolis, superhero stuff is what I was most interested in starting. So, let’s discuss:

Batman: Year One by Frank Miller and Frank Mazzucchelli

I like Batman. I like gritty Batman. I’ve seen the Nolan movies and one of my favorite TV shows of all time is Batman: The Animated Series.

I didn’t like this. I know that objectively, it was good, but I didn’t like the grit in comic book form. I just didn’t feel connected to Bruce Wayne. I’m not invested in his story.

I can’t really pinpoint it… The grit was too realistic while I definitely prefer something more stylized. The art style and writing were good… I guess it’s just not something I wanted out of a comic.

Ultimate Spider-Man by Brian Michael Bendis and Mark Bagley

I didn’t expect to love this. Spider-Man is my favorite Marvel superhero, but I think the familiar story can get bland since I’ve played it across video games and seen it in the Sam Raimi movies.

But, I really liked this. I like the modern style. I like the characters. I just found it a really likable retelling of what I already know. I think it’s also really suspenseful. I know this goes on for at least 100 issues, and then it jumps into Miles Morales, who I love from his movie.

I don’t really know why I like this better. I don’t tend to like Marvel better!

I think it’s because DC has better villains and Marvel has better heroes. Since the origin story comics focus more on the heroes, Batman is boring while Spiderman is relatable.

I don’t know.

Either way, I’m really happy to have found one comic I liked. I’ll have to look around other DC offerings to see if there’s anything less depressing. I just don’t like angst-ridden heroes… It’s so boring. Obviously, there’s a time and a place, but fundamentally, I want them to be happy people.

I wonder if I have any comic book friends I can ask.

i kinda read 5 self-help books in 5 days so you don’t have to

I think this was the first big experiment in not using Goodreads and being pressured to finish one book at a time.

I bought a bunch of books based on podcasts I listened to, human recommendations, and vague interests when I was 16 — so back in 2013.

A lot of them ended up being about career-oriented self-help. I had no clue what I was going to do, I just knew that I probably wasn’t going to college and I had no idea how people survived in the world. I was also thoroughly depressed.

I used to think that books held secrets. I couldn’t afford to buy the self-help books that everyone said were life changing (that Parachute one? 4-Hour Work Week? Others???), so I used to read every summary and listen to every interview with the authors. I still thought they held secrets. If only I could get my hands on them…

I read every book that someone bought for me almost immediately. I thought I owed it to them. I also was able to start buying my own once I turned 16, and then that archive started to build up a little bit.

Some were life-changing. How could I not believe books had secrets?

It turns out, most were not.

I’m nearing the end of my time in LA, sitting in my childhood bedroom, with the books I left behind staring at me. I’d never opened most of these.

I decided that in the last week I was here, I would read the 6 directly self-help books still on my shelf.

Let’s dicuss.

Book #1: Mastery by Robert Greene

This is the longest of the books, clocking in at ~320 pages. Who knew self-help books were so freaking short?

I expected it to be pretentious and irritating.

It was.

But it was also kind of fun. There’s a lot of fun, historical stories told in a really engaging way.

In particular, I really liked the parts about social politicking in order to get ahead. I legitimately found that useful and relevant.

But god, it starts with a find your calling thing, and it’s 2020, and we all know that’s really dumb.

Book #2: The Education of Millionaires by Michael Ellsberg

I hated this. I dropped it.

It’s repetitive as hell. The advice is antiquated. All of the testimonials are from like… bloggers and Peter Thiel. This is some scam artist Dale Stephens Uncollege type of nonsense. I can’t believe I used to be into this stuff.

I used to believe.

Anyway, don’t read it. It’s very bad. It’s so 2011.

Blogging is dead, All the old bloggers are dead. There’s no future in a one-man media brand business anymore, Michael.

Book #3: The Happiness of Pursuit by Chris Guillebeau

I liked this one. I just had an issue with it — it kind of starts with the fundamental conceit that you’re unsatisfied with your life.

I guess, doesn’t all self-help start with the fundamental conceit that you’re unhappy with your life?

I’m pretty happy with my life. I definitely don’t want to go through the effort of a quest.

But, nice writing. I liked reading about Chris’ travelogues. He seems like a likable dude. I’m just not his audience.

Book #4: Choose Yourself by James Altucher

I’ve always hated James Altucher.

I think he’s a scam artist.

Read this author bio:

James Altucher is a successful entrepreneur, chess master, investor, and writer. He has started and run more than 20 companies, and sold several of those businesses for large exits. He has also run venture capital funds, hedge funds, angel funds, and currently sits on the boards of several companies. His writing has appeared in most major national media outlets (Wall Street Journal, ABC, Financial Times, Tech Crunch, Forbes, CNBC, etc). His blog has attracted more than 10 million readers since its launch in 2010. This is his 11th book.

This reads like the summary on my resume, begging the recruiter to hire me. How can one person run MULTIPLE venture capital AND hedge AND angel funds before turning 50?

I invested my dad’s money once — HEDGE FUND LEADER.

James has a very traditional self-help style, very self-focused. While Chris seems like a likable guy, James is that Louis CK, Marc Maron style of “relatable because I am also self-centered and hate myself.” James keeps telling us how he’s made all this money, but he also keeps telling us how he lost it all. I don’t get it.

I was willing to give it a shot when first he said — only do things you like, write down 10 ideas a day, go for walks every hour. I’m like yeah, yeah, this is generic, but it’s always worth another slap in the face to hear this information.

It’s riddled with typos and clearly no real publisher did this. Who is Lioncrest Publishing? It’s not a real publishing firm. I just looked it up. It’s Tucker Max’s publishing firm. My goodness, I hate the person who recommended this to me. I hope they suffer.

Then, here’s this gem:

In 1992 I wanted to move into a homeless shelter because I thought girls who were homeless would be more likely to go out with me. I had this fantasy version of what a homeless shelter would be like. We’d sneak around to each other’s rooms as if they were dorm rooms. It would be romantic. Lots of giggling. And crack smoking. Heck, I’d try it. For love.

At least 1000 people read this, and related to it, and thought there was nothing wrong with this statement.

All I have to say is — What the fuck?

Excuse me?

A 45 year-old grown man wants to exploit women at a homeless shelter? And it’s supposed to be relatable?

I’ll say it here — I’ve never wanted to be in a homeless shelter. I guess that’s a brave stance in 2013 when this piece of shit was published. But hey, I’ll go on record.

That was pretty much it for me, but I saw that in the next chapter he actually started giving the real advice. It was… oh god, so… so generically bad.

It’s just, quit your job! It sucks! Start a business! Exploit your employees! Go vacation in Greece! The man doesn’t care about you!

There’s no real concrete direction for doing so, it’s in the same vein as so much of this stuff.

Yknow, let’s talk about how I got into stuff like this in the first place…

I was a deeply disabled teenager who pretty much knew she could never go to college. I needed to figure out a way to sustain myself. I never wanted to be rich. I just wanted to figure out how to survive.

Of course, I got led down this path of entrepreneurship and stuff. It was all like this — it made me into a libertarian who truly believed the 401k is a scam and if you just keep making scrappy business ideas, you’ll make it.

You know who had a lot of business ideas when they were that age? Teenage drug dealers. Do you know what happened to all those drug dealers? They’re salespeople now.

Entrepreneurship for the sake of entrepreneurship sickens me. I hate that in my desperation, I was led into that. It took so much distance to unbrainwash myself from that.

God, my life is so much better now than it was then.

Anyway, I hated this book. No one should read it. Tucker Max is shit for making this. Ryan Holiday is shit for marketing this. James Altucher is shit for writing this. They make money off of gullible teenagers like me who were told, “This book changed my life,” and bought into James’ bullshit financial claims without really understanding how finances work.

Stop exploiting teenagers and telling them to not go to college. It’s never women of color who are saying this. It’s always white men who did go to college.

Go to college.

I don’t regret not going, but every time I have to look for a job, you know it looms at me because literally everyone who looks and talks like me went to UC Berkeley.

Anyway, let’s move on. This book made me mad and every time a book makes me mad, it really makes me question humanity and if I want to even listen to humans anymore.

Book #5: Linchpin by Seth Godin

Okay, this one was good. It’s more high-level than anything else.

Seth is a really likable writer and what he says makes sense. It’s kind of more of a manifesto than a self-help book.

I’m still unclear exactly about what I’m supposed to do. I’m supposed to not just clock into my job, but be brave and make choices that help people.

Maybe I’m too young for this, but I’ve always known that this exact sentiment is what my resume is trying to prove?

“Hire me, I’m creative and productive and I’ll bring millions into your business. I’m a change-maker!”

Maybe this just wasn’t the case when Seth was writing this.

Anyway, read none of these.

There was a 6th book, Bold by Peter Diamandis and someone else. I got bored. I don’t want to read it. Like all self-help books, the takeaway is the title and the sub-title:

Bold: How to Go Big, Create Wealth, and Impact the World

I get it, the only way to really get anywhere is to have a dream that’s so astronomically out of reach that even if you miss, you’ll still have gotten so far. I get it. Solve the problems of the world. Cure cancer. If you fail, you’ll have gotten closer to curing cancer.

I don’t like self-help. I’m glad I never have to look at these books again.

comics

I’ve been trying to get into comics for a decade now. I’ve read the entirety of Scott Pilgrim and Persepolis. I generally find comics to be difficult to read, the left to right structure is hard for my eyes. People have recommended me comics, but the medium is hard to understand and I have no idea how to step into serialized things like superhero comics, despite …kind of wanting to?

Then, I found this video:

This is amazing. It addressed all my concerns, gave me a ton of recommendations based on things I already like, and reminded me to check out my library during this time of crisis.

Turns out, Hoopla has a TON of comic books. There’s no wait, but there is a limited borrowing time. It has a panel-by-panel reader and great search capabilities.

I picked up two Batman comics and Saga. I really want to read the Bone comics since that’s what I saw the most when I was a kid, and I like the art style. But, sadly Hoopla doesn’t have it. I might pick it up on comiXology since it’s $20. We’ll see.

I’ll report back on if I ever really get into comics enough to have a subscription like magazines.

gallagher girls

I finished the Gallagher Girls series this past weekend.

I read the books in a bit of a fever — #1 was a nostalgia trip of a really cool book that was extremely short. #2-4 were fun and sucked me into their worlds. #5-6 were… a slog.

Let’s go through them 1 by 1.

  1. The first book is really not that good, but it establishes a plotline that would basically never be repeated again. It was interesting to see Cammie’s relation to her spy life in relation to her personal life. That is kind of there in Book #2 and then is dropped completely. Josh basically disappears and Cammie and Zach are together for the rest of the series. It’s kind of boring, it kind of makes this book feel really disconnected. Nostalgia also makes this the best book in the series.
  2. I love the premise of #2. We’re introduced to Guy #2, Zach, and a rival spy school. It’s not explored very well, and there’s a lot of unanswered questions at the end of the book. But it’s good fun, so whatever.
  3. This gets intense very fast, but I’m still on board. Preston is great, taking it outside of the context of school and ramping up the world is really cool. I liked the backdrop of the presidential election and the fleeting appearances of Zach. Pretty good. This was also the last book I read when I was a kid.
  4. The intensity increases here. I liked it, still? I liked the talk of her dad. I really wanted him to be heading up the syndicate, but I guess the evil parent is already covered by Zach. Still fun. This is the last book where any concept of school is even relevant. Cammie and pals basically don’t even do Senior Year.
  5. Ugh. I hated this one. It makes sense from an overarching story perspective to have Cammie lose her memory. But, god, it was boring, and writing a brainwashed amnesiac well is very hard. Suddenly, it’s all murder and emo and blah. Hated it.
  6. This was a fitting conclusion to the series, but still intense. I think I just didn’t enjoy the ramping intensity of the series — which is also an issue I had with the Harry Potter series.

That’s basically it. I had a lot more to say at the beginning of the series than the end. This happened. I didn’t love it as much as I wanted to. The first book is still a treat, though. The rest? Meh.